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i miss you.

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^ that picture explains everything. not gonna lie. if you know anything about my life, you'd know what or .. who thats aimed towards. but whatever. can't change the past, obviously can't change the future. it takes two people for everything to get fixed out. i'm done trying. gave you so many chances. seems like you don't even care, and i wouldnt doubt it if you dont. so that means i'm not gonna either. at all, untill you show you do. seems fair to me. i don't see any good in this if i'm just pissed about it all the time. xo.

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i haven't wroteeee. haha. ohwell. not much has been going on. my life kinda sucks, alot. i went to the mall with amanda and simone. that was pretty fun. i gotta new jacket and a pair of moccosins that i've wanted for a while. i'm actually in such a bad mood. you make me kinda miserable. true. good thing you don't even realize it anymore. and prolly don't even think about half this shit. whatever yo. i'll be like this for a while. i think im gonna sleep or something. goodnight.

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i don't feel like writing anything. i feel like crap basically. i really just want to sleep. went to school, left early and went to the doctors. and i've been home since. i'm not really sick. i found a BUNCH of cool pictures, so maybe i'll edit past blogs that i didnt have pictures for. i owe mikeh a blog too. i'm most likely doing absolulty nothing tomorrow. so i'll do that then, even though i was supposed to do it fer today. :x i think i might go sleeep. goodnight. xo.

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ohhai. today was pretty decent, considering i still feel like death. uh well. ^ favorite song. that song, and this girl i guess we're friends lmao, made me realize how much i miss my bestfriend, true life. i thought about it, and things werent supposed to get as fucked up as they did. and we both let it get outtta control and i miss how everything USED to be, and it needs to be that way again. anyways, everythings good now. i learned the intro to my heroine on guitar yesterday <33333. and my stepmom said she'd take me to legit get my lip pierced. so exciting. i got a fishy, named oliver.... on my phone. from dave. lmfao, that made me laugh a litttle bit. i really don't have much to say. i think ima go play guitar and whatever. i'll write tomorrrah :D xo.

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uhh, hey. i haven't updated this in so long. lmao, this is such a fail. i think i'm gonna try and start writing again. >_< whats happened? not much. school is so lame, today we had the PSATs. i think that was the most pointless test i've ever taken, considering the fact that i guessed on half of it.. how lovely. the math was kind of easy, the english.. not so much. maybe cause we didnt start doing practice english SATs in SAT prep. again, lamest clast EVER. the bell schedule is all messed up today, so i have no idea what time this period ends, but i'll write till i can, and then edit later :D i got a new ipod. i love it, its 160GB. more then i'll prolly ever need, but its a classic, i've wanted one of those for a while, instead of a nano or the itouch, which is completly pointless. hm, whatelse is there to say? OH. "once a whore, you're nothing more. i'm sorry that will never change." how cliche, that applys to some girl, shesa whore. and honestly, i think my friend can do much better then her. but she makes him happy, so i guess thats all that matters, dispite everyone elses opinions, he still went for it. so i'm happy for him. my home life has been REALLY lame, i was fighting with my mom alot last week, and almost left the house. yesterday i had to go to a doctor to talk to him about all this depression stufff, basically stuff needs to be fixed at home. so now ontop of the therapy i go to now, every other week, he suggested family therapy. i'm Soooooooooooooo psyched for that. cantcha tell? i mean i get to be with my two favorite people... my stepdad and my mom, telling them what i dont like about them, or something of that sort. i guess i can enjoy that, to an extent. i'll talk to my therapist about it today, and what she thinks. i'm not one to talk very much though, to my mom or anyone like that. we'll see where that goes, and i'll keep ya updated. UHM, i love you a little bit. hahahahahahahhaa. 8 more minutes of this period? i think i'll go [: i'll edit about the rest of my day a little later. xo.


edit: uhhey. therapy sucked. i passed out for like 2 hours. went to therapy and guitar. and now i'm doing absolutly nothing. i feel like crap. not gonna lie. i think ima shower, and sleep. and not go to school tomorrow :D :D :D bai. <3

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so. i've been pretty lame at keeping up with this, this week. aha. well. for one i guesss everything with you got so much better. we're actuallly talking, how we used to. but not. idunnno. whys everything have to be so damn complicated? i actaully got really sidetracked, but i haz to get ready for school. i'll edit later, or make a new post. haha. xo.