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today, was a reallllly sucky day. i kind of have alot to say though. ^ FTSK <3333333333 i need to stop telling people things, that i know aren't true. until they get to the point where what i think becomes true. also, i really have no idea why i have friends. i'm annoying, i make no sense. i can be a good friend, but i get irritated easily and i have my own problems to deal with, when i can't help other people with theirs it makes me feel like complete shit. i need to change myself, and how i am. i have t o be more positive, and not all negative all the time. the things i do need to be because they make me happy, not because they make other people happy cause thats what i seem to do. i dunnno. somethings gotta happen. i can't live how i do any longer. on another subject, schools really stressful, i felt really sick at somepoints today. it sucked, just a little bit. theres not much to say about school... or anything recently. BUT, i actually do have something to write. maybe i'll put a picture..


so, see that kid in the picture? YEAH. well, that would have to be my bestfriend christian. and, even if i say i hate him so much, and that i'm never gonna talk to him again. i never mean it, cause i can't not talk to him. as lame as it sounds hes a huge part of my life and has changed alooooot. i'm not gonna go into a whole thing, but i thought that, i should say this here maybe? why not. i write my life in this blog anyways. but thats besides the point. whethere or not he'll see this is a different story but, i'm saying to anyone who actually does read this, you should know that i'd be no where without this kid, and i luff him. >_<


on aaaaaaa diffnote, i'm at my grandparents. i'm supposed to be printing stuff for my binders. oooops. and then i have us & math homework to do. and, my ipod to update. rofl. and ineed to sleep early, since i got about 3 and a half hours last night. wonderful. i'll update later. bai! xo.